What if there was an alternate reality where…

Studio Notes

Hmm. Thought experiments.

What if? What if I could stop this?

What if I didn’t say anything?

What if there were reprisals?

What if I put my mental health at risk?

What if there was no support network for after the ordeal?

All valid thoughts. All eventually had answers.

So far, so good, this month has been great! After dealing with a few unpleasant things over the last few months, this month has been the best in a long time.

I’ve just got back from a brief family visit to England and am now looking into what is probably going to be the most strenuous change of lifestyle since I moved abroad.

RedHeat, June 2004

A man who I knew would still be preying on young boys was found still abusing children but nobody had come forward to do anything about it. Without any evidence, the authorities would not intervene, until I arrived in England, back on the scene. He was sent to trial and then to prison on my testimony.

Take that, you bastard.

This caused so much turbulence in my life, it took many years of help to overcome the trauma of the trial as well as the brutally refreshed memories of the past. The truth is the abuse happened to me and nothing will change that but what I didn’t understand for so long is that I have nothing to feel guilty about. What I did was right.

I am finally at peace.

The piece below is from some time between 2003 and 2004, it took months to set the above in motion, so naturally it reflected in my music. Looking back from 2022 it is clear there is a shy tone of despair in this piece. Just know that everything turned out alright.

A fairly simple piano piece with light instrumentation.

Equipment used:

  • Roland XP60 Synthesiser
  • Emu ESI4000T Digital Sampler
  • Emu Ultra6400 Digital Sampler
  • Unitor AMT8 Midi Patch-bay
  • Terratec 24/96 Audio Interface
  • Cakewalk Pro Audio 9

Cover:

  • Apple iPad Pro 4th Generation
  • Shapr3D iOS CAD – 3D modeling and visualization
  • Procreate iOS – Composition
  • MOLDIV iOS – Post production

Cover Art

Performed By: Redheat

Album UPC: 194171475498

Label: Redheat

Released: 2003

ISRC: ushm21987507

Year: 2003

Genres: Instrumental Piano

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The Butterfly Effect

Breda 18 Januari 2013

Dear Greg,

Thank you very much for giving me your music, a piece of you! I was deeply touched* (forgive me my spelling, I see its not alright, but don’t know the right spellings) as you have seen, by your gesture.

For me, your music is easy listening I am surprised by that! I hear a lot of different emotions in it. It’s a very special way to expose yourself, special and beautiful.

Thank you for sharing it with me. Perhaps if you can find time for it and you want it, will you put the music on my own MP3 player? I’ll bring it to the hospital on saturday.

You gave me a lot of pieces that help me to give me inner peace. May I keep your MP3 player till you installed mine?

I wish you to be well soon,

Yours sincerely,

M.

I hope you feel soon like a butterfly! I drew one for you!

*Corrected on behalf for readability.


I received the note during a long stay in hospital, a couple of years then passed and then me and my wife went through the motions to formalise the change. The name to whom the note is addressed to no longer matters, my tag has always been Red 😃

Marwinia

A Return to Marwinia: the Forest’s Promise of an Escape, the story behind RedHeat’s: The Escape from Marwinia.

A hop, skip and jump, falling, fighting, victories, frights, revelations, reconciliation and ultimate involuntary sacrifice to the madness of the sentient forest.

Originally composed in 2005 and recorded while performed from a combination of orchestral and electronic instruments, the evocative soundtrack whisks the listener on a journey across a bizzaare twisted world where fantasty meets a crazed glimpse into the mind and life experiences of the artist.

Cover Art

Listen if you dare venture out from this cursed land

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Vlog: LZ-OG: Lanzarote – 2019

First vacation since Ilona-Ruby’s miraculous treatment, its been a hell of a time getting to this moment, and its all on me to pull all the suitcases and I don’t mind one bit. 😎

Here’s our vacation video and a nifty soundtrack made in an 8-bar mono-synthesizer called Figure.

It doesn’t actually have a sequencer, so the output is recorded live while each 8-bar files is swapped in realtime. Heh! 🤣

Vlog: The Lake

The Mastbos is a nearby forest in the city of Breda, it has a spectacular landscape and is a great place to go for a gentle stroll.

This video was shot on one of the sunny days a few weeks after Ilona-Ruby’s last radiotherapy. It was good to be outside again.

The music is composed for this video, its everything and its nothing. Inspired by Mike Oldfield, it leans heavily on some of his greatest riffs. Enjoy: The Lake.

Vlog: Mastbos: Return to Ommadawn

Mike Oldfield’s chilly Return to Ommadawn album dropped and so it was to be. A walk in the last sunset of November, in the afternoon at half past three.

A place we frequently try to return to- as it is always changing, the lake at this place is very shallow and when dried up it reveals ancient farm cuts in the land. Its an incredibly beautiful place.

Video shot on a DJI Spark drone and piloted manually, composited in Luma Fusion, the colors are unaltered.

Vlog: Chaamse Bos – Autumn 2018 – Sentinel

Chilly weather, the last of the sunshine as 2018 makes its departure into the winter. This video was shot on a DJI Spark piloted manually and edited in Luma Fusion on the iPad. The music is by Mike Oldfield from his Tubular Bells II, an album I absolutely love.

The area is the remains of a filled-in outdoor swimming facility that shut down many years ago, nature has taken over the concrete and a natural pond has formed in the shallow remains of the swimming pools. It is, as you will see- quite lovely.